Capricorn full moon blessings from this little corner of space-time

on spiritual growing pains

Griffin Wooldridge

Hi lovelies,

for the past few months, I’ve been having what I’ve started to refer to as intense spiritual growing pains. it was as if every time I took a massive step forward—in my self concept, in self love and confidence, and more—my old patterning would surge right back up again.

you know, like that nasty little voice in the back of your mind that’s always been a little too familiar, a little too quick to snap that “it wouldn’t work out anyway” or that you aren’t good enough for whatever it is you’re reaching for.

again and again, I’ve toed the line between who I was—and who I’m striving to embody, day in and day out. then I found myself confused, angry, upset, and disappointed in my own damn self because I felt that I “should” be past all this. (the “who I was” part of the equation, that is.)

but the reality is such: there are so many stops and starts to this thing. they say healing isn’t linear for a reason. ultimately, I had to remind, and continue reminding, myself just that.

“you’ll leap forward, then fall back again, more than once.”

because the full moon always occurs in the opposing sign, working with full moon energy is always an exercise in duality. we know that it’s (still) Cancer season, and as soggy as that may feel at times (trust, even with a Cancer stellium in my birth chart, I’m feeling this hard), today’s full supermoon in Capricorn ushers in a reminder of the importance of pressing on with what matters most to us.

even when we’re emotional about things we thought we’d “gotten past”, even when we’re overwhelmed, and especially, especially, when we feel like giving up.

Plus, this full moon is occurring within a few degrees of Pluto, the dwarf planet represented by the lord of the Underworld, whose chthonic undertones expose us to the shadowy and nebulous realms of the subconscious. that which doesn’t normally see the light of day, whether because we aren’t consciously aware it exists or because we find ourselves afraid to face it.

Sometimes, we have to accept that we—and others—can only grow and heal and evolve at the rate we can handle. it takes time to unlearn deeply embedded beliefs. it takes time to absorb new ways of thinking and being in a manner that propels us into the next phase of our evolution, while also ensuring that our subconscious feels safe.

once we have assimilated the lessons that are bestowed upon us at any given time, then and only then can we “graduate” that particular Earth lesson and move onto the next.

and that is a truth Capricorn knows well.

Cap is ruled by Saturn, after all—none other than the stern paterfamilias of the Universe. if one thing is for sure, it’s that if you haven’t crossed your t’s, dotted your i’s, and done the work, then daddy Saturn will take you to task on what you value most dearly. but he’s also the one that doles out the rewards—and for those of us doing the work, day in and day out, those rewards will be plentiful.

I promise.

the familial axis of Cancer/Capricorn energy—the Mother and Father archetypes, respectively—is at play here, ensconced within that pendulum. material and emotional safety and security. initiating and taking ownership versus allowing and feeling; releasing, receiving, then repeating. doing the work and finding your peace, moment by moment.

So how do we accept, surrender, and release the old in order to receive new blessings… while also building the necessary foundations and structures for the legacies we wish to put forth into the world?

I can’t tell you that. at least not entirely, and certainly not in a single email ;)

but I can tell you that when all else fails, go outside and look at the moon.

(and those truly surreal NASA images of space newly revealed by the James Webb telescope and lighting up the internet. Cosmic Cliffs, anyone?)

xx

Kimia